the start of a new journey began..

Today I am five weeks pregnant with a baby I will not be able to keep. My parents don't even know yet (although I am in my mid 20s) I found that this may be a nice journey to write about along the whole way. The guy who is the father happens to be a mere friend, not someone one would make a father out of, let God decide, neither am I ready in my infinite list if not ready yets, not finished school or with a steady ministry. I am also a Christian. I made a mistake but I know God is in the business of re-ordering a world of problems into beautiful reality. Well I knew I was prgnant almost two weeks after conception I had an amazing array of symptoms making me wonder how in God's name anyone could Not Know...with cramping adn headaches I never get, and bigger boobs. The answer was right there but not until 3 weeks from conception did I take a test and it said positive.